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With apologies to Jesse Jackson.

Tue Jun 23, 2009, 12:19 AM
Fuck I hate being suicidal and bipolar.
I NEED to keep taking my Cymbalta and Lamictal.

I'm sorry if I hurt you. I mean ALL of you. Honest. I've realized what's wrong. I'm not weak, I'm just afraid of being weak. In past friendships, I'd open up to people, hoping I could trust them, and I'd end up getting used or emotionally wrecked. So I push people away the minute I realize I've trusted them "too much". I'm a bitch, just to defend myself, even if it always bites me in the ass in the end.

I'm suicidal because, hey, I think I have a bad life. But things could be a lot worse, and I know that. I may not be able to help the times I'm having my manias, but I'm going to try my best on those things. I need to make sure I take my medicines. If it seems like I'm pushing you away/being a royal bitch or a pain in the ass to you, TELL ME. PLEASE. But be sure to remind me that I told you to tell me that, so I won't go apeshit insane on your ass.

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Well. I'm going to become little old Rae Elric, if you remember her.

  • Mood: Love
  • Listening to: Love, for real this time.

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<3 Good job.

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"To young to live a lie
Look into my eyes...~"

-Tokio Hotel
"Ready, Set, Go!"
:iconnailohi13:
Everyone needs to go apeshit crazy once in a while *nod* It's what keeps me sane *nod* However ironic that is.

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But I must be my own master,
Or if a miniature disaster hits me,
It could be the death of me.

~KT Tunstall~Miniature Disasters~

Xion is my favorite character. Suck it up.

~black-x-blindfold ~SerahClub
:icondemented-alchemist:
Gonna hold you to that, y'know.

But yes. Good job. :3

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...with a potato.
:iconmelody-hikari:
I'm sorry I wasn't much of any help, but it's wonderful to see that you're still alive and you haven't made Sangome cry from your death.
Or I would have hunted after your soul all the way through the afterlife and used a Phoenix Down and then yell at you.
And then ask how the hell do I get back home when I was done yelling at you. Because I care enough about my friends to not let them get away with doing harm to other friends. =3

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