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Journal Entry: Sat Dec 19, 2009, 4:40 PM

Mood: Frustrated

Well, this may be it for my little old computer. It runs so slow, and locks up certain things. Downloads, exe's, antiviruses, my firewall, even MESSENGER. Ugh. Even Control Panel > System is blocked. Uninstalls and installs are blocked.

I tried defragmenting it, didn't do a damn thing.
I REALLY don't want to wipe my hard drive, since I have a lot of files that still need to be transferred to my External [which won't be read anymore...]
I'll do a System Restore, but I think THAT was blocked too. :/

I really do wanna cry. This thing is my baby. I just haven't done anything to get a virus, so I don't know what the hell is going on.

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But what about..

Journal Entry: Tue Dec 15, 2009, 2:42 AM

Mood: Tired

"But what about Adrian and Isabelle? You gotta be strong for them."

dshdshdsahlkdsaklhds I couldn't be happier to hear those words.

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Testing~

Journal Entry: Sun Dec 6, 2009, 11:17 PM

Mood: Hungry
Listening to: "Set the Fire to the Third Bar"

_{Testing my new CSS.
What do you guys think? <3

Is the white font too hard to read?
Does the header not show up fully?

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Abuse.

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 24, 2009, 11:17 AM

Mood: Worried

_{Pasted from the forum, sorry if you're seeing it twice.

I know I need to go back to regular counseling again.

My paranoia came back. I have one INSANE fear of older men, and most men in general [although I truly get along with boys my age, and not girls]. I constantly fear that a man is going to take advantage of me. It got to the point where I wouldn't take a shower at my own house because my drug addict uncle lives here. He's the nicest guy, but he hasn't been in my life for me to trust him. It takes me a LONG time to trust men. Hell, I still flinch and cringe if I'm upset around Ian. I can't let my boyfriend of half a year to even comfort me without fearing he'll take advantage of me, which I know he won't do.

I mean... ugh. I know it's from me being molested at 13 and date raped last year. But I thought I was over it! It didn't bother me anymore! So what, I lost control. Became a victim. I took care of myself after the rape, and I was too young when I was molested to even see that I had changed.

Just... ugh. I want to be sane.

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Oh my gosh. :/

Journal Entry: Sun Nov 22, 2009, 9:42 PM

Mood: Confused

_{Can anyone explain to me the ending of Higurashi Kai?
With the older Rika and the young Miyo?
Wtf.

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Dec 19, 2009 Computer.
Dec 15, 2009 But what about..
Dec 6, 2009 Testing~
Nov 24, 2009 Abuse.
Nov 22, 2009 Oh my gosh. :/
Nov 17, 2009 I missed this. <3
Nov 8, 2009 I'm sore and tired.
Nov 6, 2009 Oh look.
Oct 11, 2009 Lifeness
Sep 28, 2009 Friend Codes

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